Inside silence

Freedom and being alone is not the same.
Freedom is living just as you are participating in life, relations, myriads of connections, exchange, sharing and giving with another, others and with world. When you give and receive love you become free. Otherwise you will feel lonely even together with many.

When you have courage to unfold your true authentic self with faults, mistakes, qualities, abilities, feelings, passion and acts taking part of life, then you are free.
It is within relationships that we live, create the space-in-between-us together with all its difficulties and challenges.

But all of us are also completely alone. Also you.
You can be alone with a wisdom that nobody else seems to understand. You are alone about making choices only for you. Nobody else can be who you are. Only you know when it´s too much for you, when you are tired, hungry, in lust or feeling lonely.

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Most of us are scared of the existential loneliness. So we make noise. Physical noise – emotionally, mental and practical noise to avoid the loneliness we fear to face.
We fill up our calendars with activities, social meetings – because with others you cannot be alone, this we believe.
We escape, run, jump, talk, eat, drink, watch TV, read books, send mails, sms, invite neighbours, rush to more education, concerts, conferences etc. to never ever get lonely – that´s what we believe.

We get scared of quietness. Silence frightens many of us. Somehow we know: inside silence is where this me-completely-alone lives.
Try to investigate silence. Do nothing but just sit still open aware with closed eyes. Be conscious of your body planted on chair. Wait. Nothing scary happens.

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Maybe to start a lot of thoughts about loneliness, death, dark, emptiness or mania come forward, until we discover that it is just thoughts, not who we are.
We can instead discover that we are just sitting here – alive, that we live, breathe and exist. Feelings that follow this “I am alive part of life on this planet” inside this silent silence there can be gratefulness, peace, thrill, excitement and also there can be love.

We might get an experience of expanding, melting into oneness with everything. Or we may experience a contraction that we enter into the essence of what is our inner core.
Both give the sense that we can impossible be alone as long as we are alive. We are interconnected and have the power to create this interconnectedness to be with love.